Haha tested out my veggie dish at home today.

It looks and taste not bad ;-)

Oh and mummy made cheesecake ;-)

Food for the soul, literally.

Food makes me happy, no doubt about that. The thing in the last picture is a chocolate spoon. It's so cool omg. Like you dip it in hot milk and you get hot chocolate. Did I mention that it's absolutely yumz? Haha better than Shannon's stupid After Eight. Heh.

9 more days, make or break.

Ring rong

Ok I was being gay I'm sorry I'm probably too stressed over the exams ughhhhh.

Haha right my 3 bucks ring (YES SHIPPING INCLUSIVE) from china finally came.

No, it's not plastic.

Oh yeah that stupid Alison had a fever and didn't come to school on friday. Missed her (yes and her noise) so much. Dayum I miss netball training and my netball babes!!! Oh and I was very very sleep deprived on Friday because I friggin slept at like 2 the previous night!!! Watched antm and glee s3 and did home ecs. Right I think I'm quite high now ok night chums!

Candles

Yknow those moments where when you recall, this subtle smile just unknowingly creeps across your face? Yesterday made it into my book of "Best Memories". Ohhh there's that smile on my face again.

Met up with Jandy yesterday! Gosh I love her so much. Find a friend, no no best friend, whom you can totally not feel awkward with. Like you've known her since forever and that you can feel so comfortable with. Yup that's how I feel with Jasmine. Went to subway for lunch and we talked and laugh and reminiscence about so many things. Haha she had No. 1 Chendol after that. Then went to ntuc and bought my mugging food. Chocolates pomsticks pocky brownies. Went to kfc and started our mugging marathon. Sigh love that girl so much. Lame xia hur hur.

Went home and had chilli crab and lala and chicken wings for dinner. Sigh my insatiable greed for food...

Did math homework and went out to meet the boy at about 10.45? Met him at the bus stop and we walked over to the grass patch and camped on the pavements. Talked about anything and everything and had a good laugh when I saw his ez link card. Hahahahaha ok now I can't stop laughing. We satellite gazed behind the trees:) I had this urge to lie on the wet grass but then I saw a snail and changed my mind. Haha but it was a nice night<3 I was smiling all the way home and then I gorged on mee kia cause daddy bought. Someone please tell me why I'm such a fattie!!!

Oh another thing is, 700 FOLLOWERS <3

We've come a long way, tumblr!

Enchanted

It's not that I don't want to blog it's just that I've nothing to blog about because recently it's just been study study study. I don't even go out with the babes for lunch anymore #nolife.

Haha oh but I went to salted caramel on tuesday with April and Shannon! We saw one whole group of st nicks el teachers. Our affinity with teachers sigh. The previous time we saw Molly eating chicken at kfc! Haha right so we did geog and laughed and camwhored. It's so sad how both of them are going to go to vj...:( Ugh sucks.

Stayed back to do physical on wednesday. We had to shoot 250 shots and like 15 of them had to be taken 3 feet in front of the D WHICH WAS SO FAR AWAY. We took damn long to complete and our balls were like flying everywhere. It's so difficult to get accuracy, height, distance and power into a shot so far away omg!!! Haha then Rachel and Jamie stayed back to study with me. Went to macs and did a bit of geog. Met the bob after that and he bought muji pens for me aww:) Then we did retarded things on the overhead bridge and at the bus stop. Haha "this night is sparkling, don't you let it go, i'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home" is so apt( ;-) )

Thurzday thurzday. So much happened during recess hahahaha omg xiiaoboii hahahaha. Right then before history we were dancing outside the com lab and doing ah lian accents sigh why are we so retarded.

That Alison's suspected of being down with dengue omg:( Gonna miss her in school tomorrow.

Best I ever had <3

They say that time, heals everything.

It just occured to me how 12th September was the last "First day of school" of the year.

It just occured to me how Alison's "Welcome back to school babe!" + hug fest with the chinks would probably be the last.

The past few terms had been so life changing with my babes and I am so terrified that time we have together is running out.

They are honestly one of the best things that has ever happened to me.

On a sidenote, EOYs are here and I am so so screwed.

I have so much to study for and I haven't even officially started. Life sucks.

As in like I really wanna do well this term and stop disappointing people and myself but it's so hard.

Because my best is never enough.

2nd week and going strong.

THE WANTED.

I don't even know how to put how happy I was today into words.

It's like, on my Top 10 Best Day of My Life list omg. I went to buy water for april and aris and otw back I saw Max at the backdoor. I didnt recognise him but then he smiled and I was like "OMG OMG OMG" and I ran back to find april and aris and we ran all the way. AND SUDDENLY TOM PARKER WAS THERE TOO. Omg so we were like "hhhhhhhi can we get a photo?" Omg I can't even omg.

AND THEN WE QUEUED FOR THE AUTOGRAPH AND I WAS LIKE "Hiiiiii omg do you remember me? I love you!!!" to Max and he was like "Yeah man, yeah." AND WINKED OMG OMG OMG.

-dead-

BESIDE HIM WAS TOM PARKER AND I WAS LIKE "HIIIIII I LOVE YOU!!!" AND HE JUST TOOK MY HAND AND KISSED IT I WAS SO SHOCKED AND MY HEART LIKE FROZE OMG. HIS STUBBED CHIN RUBBING AGAINST MY FINGERS OMG I CAN STILL FEEL IT.

WHY AM I SO LUCKY I LOVE YOU GOD SO MUCH OMG OMG OMG.

It's like I never really obsessed over them. I just liked their songs and all BUT AFTER TODAY I AM IN LOVE.

Ok I am the luckiest girl on Earth.

“I was, but then I realized that I was holding on to something that didn't exist anymore. That the person I missed didn't exist anymore. People change. The things we like and dislike change. And we can wish they couldn't all day long but that never works.”

Let's just be frozen in time and don't ever stop loving.

Unproductive.

That pretty sums up my whole holiday.

Term 4, make or break.

EYEGASM HOHOHO.

Iflyt, whore.

To: You

If you don't know how to string your thoughts together, then listen to mine.

I love you.

That's all that's in my head now. Love, and you.

They say silence is golden. I never really understood that until today.

I think the best feeling in the world is to bond with someone in silence and just not feel awkward at all. Like all the love just floats in the air and all the unspoken words are understood. Like you're literally blanketed under the thick quilt of comfort. It's a nice feeling. Or maybe it's just you who makes it nice. Currently living life base on my blog head, to love the one I'm with.

Ywnkhmlifty ;-)

My favourite verse.

Gonna have faith in God, faith in us, and faith in what we share<3

Slept at 3 and woke up at 6 why am I such a screwed kid.

Haha met the bitches at amk hub at 7 and we took half an hour to find the 156 bus stop. In the end we realised we were supposed to take 165 not 156 and the first bus stop we went to was correct. Haha but when we realised it was too late cause Rachel's mom was already otw to send us. Haha we didn't know hougang was so near amk wtf! I played 3 quaters but I screwed the last one up. Coach made me play GA and I was so tired hahaha. Apparently I have a "determined face" when I play but I just told them it was my pissed off face haha.

Was supposed to go to yuri's house but we were hungry so we went to the kopitiam to eat. Omg wonton mee shiokmax. Haha then we were too lazy to move so we just sat there and talked. I was playing with my ball otw to the bus stop and then jamie kicked it and it rolled onto the road and I risked my life to take the ball wtf!!! Ok actually I was just scared that Mr Yeo would scold me hahahaha. Right then we took the bus home and my head was literally throbbing omg:( They went to buy gong cha but I was so shagged I just went home. Immediately slept when I went home hahaha. Slept atw til 6.30 and woke up to 12 texts. 3 were from Shannon telling me about how she needs a new stomach. Hai that girl ah.

SUCH A WASTED HOLIDAY!!!

This just made me tear at 12 mn.

Went out at about 8 to meet the sun and the bob for starbucks at nex heh.

Java chip yumz.

It was like awkwardness overload and we even blocked the whole escalator at one point of time cause all of us didn't wanna go down first.

Haha but it was a good night after that:)

Those days where you feel utterly and completely lonely.

Like there's NO ONE there who wants you, no one who cares for you, no one you can lean on.

I love all the wrong people for all the wrong reasons and now I don't even love.

I am probably the weirdest person I ever know and will ever know in my whole entire life.

Like every other girl, I just want a guy whom I can trust my whole world with.

Not now, but eventually.

Where to go, from here?

My neighbour's pretty flowers.

Which means my 14 years of life isn't living. Ok I can deal with that...

Haha had to wake up early on mon for oral. Val brought cards since we were the last few and we played taiti haha. Went to amk library to study alone after that cause I had training at 3 and lunching with the babes at 1.30 so I was too lazy to go home. Heh had my beef noodles for lunch then headed to school to shoot. New coach. He's nice he drives a friggin sports car omg! Traning was rather slack because it was mostly introduction and all. Went to town with faith after training. 3 days in a row haa. Then headed home and daddy bought nam kee chicken rice omg yumz. I could probably live off hawker food all my life. Char kway teow hokkien mee chicken rice duck rice bak kut teh bar chor mee. Talked to some qt 2.0 at night.

Had long house duck rice on tues and went to denise's house. Took a 24 minute bus ride from thomson to sengkang hahaha. April also come. We planned to study but like duh it failed. So at about 6.40 we went down and laid on the patio thing and moongazed. I love the wind. It doesn't only graze your cheeks, it tickles your insides. It's like... I don't know I just love wind and rain. So we sat there and talked and laughed and decided to get cheese fries from macs. Haha shit damn fattening lah, beef noodles, chicken rice, duck rice, macs. Then I took my long bus ride home again. Probably the most quiet 24 minutes of the week. We come across so many people everyday, we live in the same country but in different worlds, no? We fail to make eye contact, we don't ever bother with a smile. Oh well. The stars guided me home :)

Woke up at 6.50 today and daddy fetched me to school. Shot for like 15 minutes then started training. Everyone emphasizes a lot on how we're "B-div" now. It's like "That's ok for a c div team, but you girls are in b div now, that's not good enough." and "B div, gather." and everything else. It's scary... Coach gave us gummies after training hahaha yummy gummy. Then went with them to macs for breks. We were the last to order omg! So cool. Haha had pancakes and sausage mcmuffin! Went home and had tuition x 2.

Long day tomorrow...

Please, please, don't leave me.

K I'm gonna blog about this before blogging about my day later.

April, yuri, and shannon got into VJ.

I think it's very selfish for me to say this but I really hope that they don't go.

April and yuri are like the people who bring (noise and) fun to the team and without them it's like the team is no longer completed. It's just like an empty puzzle set, like a cup of tea without tea leaves. I'm seriously gonna miss them so much my heart will hurt. It's like... some day some time when everything's fine and dandy, you're gonna remember the times you had in school and how far they are and it's gonna hurt so bad... Honestly I don't know how I will survive 3 months without them. All our jamming sessions, bitching sessions, and just training sessions will now become memories... IT'S SO SAD!:(

And that stupid gay ego uncool shannon! We've been in the same class for 2 years but it's only this year that we got really close and I'm gonna miss her so much too! -okay great epiphany, the people who got into vj are like the noisiest people I know in my life- I was texting her and she said "If I really go, I'll miss you!!):" and I was like bitch you serious i'll miss you till I die and I started crying and the reality of them leaving really sank in and now I can't stop crying.

GOD WHY YOU DO THIS TO ME!!! :(

Ok anyway. Just follow your heart ok. But I'll really miss you guys when you go. Miss is too weak a word, it doesn't describe everything I'm feeling right now. Love you, forever and always.

Sundayyy

Hello hello so today I went to H&M with @coolShanterr haha. Was super impromtu she asked me like last night or something I couldn't remember! But we only had like 2 hours cause she had some appointment in the afternoon. K so as usual, I was late. She went in first cause there wasn't much of a queue. Then I joined her and we went crazy. Haha yeah so after doing proper shopping, we went to the kids department and were a bit... out of place? I was obsessing over all the hello kitty merchandise like wtf it's friggin hello kitty!!! I don't know when I started the hype about hk but I think it was last year when I was at taka's sanrio dept. Omg so cute lah wtf. Ok right so I saw pretty kitty undies and I HAD TO GET THEM. It was so cute omg even Shannon approved but they were for 6-8 yos wtf. Ok but I got a tiny kitty bottle yaysh. Raight so we queue at the changing room and it was so long!!!

Yeah so we camwhored. Haha okay so after this, THERE WAS ANOTHER LONGER QUEUE. Friggin cashier. Ah psh. Haha but it was fun lah:) Loved my nude clutch best. Heh.

Right so after that I went home for lunch but omw home I had this huge craving for starbucks! Haha yeah so after eating lunch I went to tp and went to study. For like 1 hour?? Then daddy and mummy picked me up and we went to eat Salted Caramel. My kahlua ice cream is the best lah seriously.

On the car daddy decided that we should go cycle around the estate but honestly I can't ride a bike for nuts so I skated. As in like roller blade lah I can't skate for nuts either. K so we rode down to ahma's house for dinner. Love family dinners aww<3 Had durian mooncooke shiok max. Haha watched The Voice and did crap then went to bathe. I've oral tomorrow at 7.30 and I'm still here wtf.

Nights hun!

HAHAHAHA SHIT OMG THIS IS DAMN FUNNY. LOOK AT MY SLIPPERS.

I think the saddest part of a friendship is when two people drift away slowly, unknowingly, and forever. When something they once shared so dear becomes mere memories. And I am the master of these friendships. I've stopped talking to so many people I once used to be so close to. Mostly guy best friends who used to mean the world to me.

September.

It's september.

Term 3 ended.

We are 1 term away from being Sec 3s.

If you don't find it all too surreal, then you are not human.

Time is like a ghost, it disappears, and when you realize how quickly it can disappear, it comes back to haunt you.

August

August has been honestly one of the best months of the year.

And maybe it’s sad that these are now memories. And maybe it’s not sad.

August started off with the most accomplishing trainings in a very long time. Then it was mummy's birthday, stayed over at mbs, had cas, watched lion king, fell in love, fell out of love, went out with Shannon in the longest time ever, sleptover x 2, went out with Shen Jun, went out with my babes (sara, shannon, alison, micaela, jade), went bowling and ice skating with my netball babes, caught up with jon, jw and wongzie, joy, yijing after a very long time of not talking, friendly match with sjc, received (a few) very shocking messages, picked on myself for all my imperfections, broke down a few times, did damn badly for CAs, ate pontian wonton mee with the nex gang after CAs, and so much more that I can't remember. But august was really really a good month.

Went out with Shannon and Shen Jun after a gazillion years. Went to town cause I had a hugeass craving for marche. Went to new look and bought clothes yay:) Haha they were damn cute there was this damn hippy printed leggings and they told me to try it so we all went to try it but backed out in the end it looked damn horrible ok. Got hungry and went to marche for dinner yumz.

Mash potato x 2, rosti w sour cream, roasted chicken crepe = happy people. Haha we still wanted chicken rice balls from downstairs wtf! Ok after that we went to f21 and I was constantly gushing over the feather earrings. Shen Jun "Get her chicken farm for her birthday." Haha then I saw this one with patters and was like "Wtf this one got pattern one!" and she went "That's a very interesting bird." in a super sarcastic tone omg why my friends all liddat one:( Haha then we decided we were gonna do our nails so we went to fep. The lady said we had to wait 20 mins so she gave us a paper to leave and number and told us to choose the colour we want first. We asked for the colour palette thing but she took damn long so we walked away. Went to eat fried mars balls and bbt. After we were contented we went back up and the girl was like "Gang cai ta men ZOU DIAO ma". Bad service alert uhoh. Right so we went to wisma and bought matching undies haha bff4lyf man. Headed to topshop and I made the life changing decision to stayover at Shannon's house.

We went swimming and cooked our own magee mee.

<3