I am so confused right now. It's like the reality of everything swimming in my brain and I feel nauseous even. It's like standing still but the whole world's spinning. I hate it. I hate how I love the people I can't love and do the things I can't do. I hate how I disappoint those who care. My life is fucked up. Everything sucks. I don't know what to feel anymore. There are so many things going wrong now.
We got back english, geog and lit today. Did alright for english but missed A by like 1 mark??? Got 25/30 for geog. I should be happy but I'm not. I don't know what happy is anymore. Yeah then I got back lit. Another disappointment like my physics. I know I'm gonna fail, I expected myself to fail badly. But it's like when you actually feel the weight of it, it hurts. It's like whatever you've worked hard for, down the drain. I don't disappoint my parents, they're like freaking supportive no matter what I get and I love them, I disappoint myself. I know how much effort I've put in, how much I bothered. But nothing blossoms into a flower. Non of the hard work you put in becomes something amazing in return. It just becomes a monster and bite you. Chewing at your stomach, allowing all the disappointment to flow through. Igniting every cell. Hurts so much.
In conclusion, my life sucks. Everything doesn't go well and I hurt so much.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect.
